small understanding (but big in practice)

some birds, a fly and a sun. Some desires create beuty some create suffering. Some seeds should be watered, some not

inspiring text on the net (a book on internet) Russian writer/about the Siberian woman Anastasiya

http://www.bunkahle.com/Anastasia/V_Megre_Anastasiya_Book_1.pdf

while i realise

there is no point thinking about it

and now i stand in front of an enourmous question

whats next?

pain

just plain paaaiiiin


is the main feeling going through me

no connectionplace...

these people who like power
have taken away all rights but to stay alife
--- trying to realise no futur no past... just this breath in itself is not painful
and be greatful for this momennt..

obscure news from the election in iceland..

strangely enough media and political figuers dont seem to percieve the elections but that Samfylkingin or S party of the united leftists have won a viktory so to speak ... with two more people in the parlement and the program going that they want to join the europe union. What the media fails to see is that the party more to the left... the left green who are againts going into Europe got 5 more people into the parlement group and thats way there is a clear messige there for not joining Europe.

And there are many strange black spots here... 15% didnt wote and 2.3 % (around 5000 people) didnt wore for anyone.. just left the votepaper plank.

Yes over 190.000 took part in this. Did the say yes to this form then, just bye taking part? I have never been asked if I want to take part or if I agree on this unjust form that they call democracy

I do think this system is dead and that it was fake elections... both because people have no space to talk things over in general but most importantly because propaganga is alowed and that makes the rich have the possebility to drown the others with repieted lyes... or leading, suggesting "information"... and therefore we are still run bye the capitalists.. and that is the road to distrucktion..

To go into Europe is the biggest mistake we could do... We would in the end loose both the land and the culture and even our mothertonge.. its the sama catastrophy as selling the land... the left big party wants to give what not yet has not been sold to Europians. Propebly the want the Germans to run it and make it into a "ecological" factoyplace for the whole continennt. And the hope of democraty is 0 there.. while here we can work on it.

one more a swindle election as all elections where propaganda is allowed

since it is the people in the money game who can bye the propeganda masters to work for them and they own the media..

whell .. still interesting to see how it goes after this big lesson in the money lye system last 8 month and 8 years and 80 years ... have we learned something?

a nation mumbling lyes...

going through fake elections...
of a fake democraty

sad feeling, bad smelling theaters... the candidates are there for their own benifits... and their mafialike clubs...

But there are other things about Iceland more interesting than this last 1100 years of horrors and lyes, somethings about now and then.. before viking

and that is to say
to you

about this ancient land of our history still there inside and woven around each hill, name and in the passing scent of elderly messenger moliculs.. the story of the elfs, the nature beings from the time before we where thrust into this unjust ways called "civilisation"..

when we where living in small groups called big families...

in houses that looked like hills... inside the earth... in fact many kinds of personal stile cosy places...

now?

what is left of those days?

yes they live in stories, in dreams in fantasies in names of places..

they live in us who are their children

in the "cristmass" or Jól tradishions of the north and the midsummer gatherins in Sweeden and Estonia

they live in our heart... and when we do something we used to like in the old time we feel good about it today... without knowing way yes.. but this is how it is that many a tradishion is kept alife... even though we dont know how it started we can feel the presence of something exeptionally holy and happy when it has its roots in those ancient times...

this can also be misused... like coca cola is doing... with the color red and white and black who where the most loved in the old times... and golden for the sun...
and later blue and white.. very holy... the ice and the sky..
but when used in the right content they give a strong and holy feeling..

I got so lucky to find a place in nature
where I could optain these colors
occur yellow, burnt sienna, white and black

In the almost the same walley in the wildreness there is an exellent place for bathing... hot river from some hot pumping wells with mineral water... hut mud also around.. (hot turf)
and yes some cold river is also there and waterfalls...

so its just my favorite these days this hot walley... to go there with my canvas and just... splash on it.. thats it...