the work has just begun...

There are few or perhaps many who are realized we need a change... even more people are hopeless, and for those who want change there are some who already are working their way to a new life. I don't know if they have all the right spiritual tools for it. This is not an easy task as the change has to come both from within and all around... there is no way of living isolated in a dream bubble or a sanctuary away from those believing in limitless freedom to exploit. But if we are conscious of the situation we can make sanctuaries for to charge and heal our self and each other. And for to be able to face the obstacles together. The road is long to sang Richie Haven..."freedom" of spirit in harmony with the rhythms of nature. There is no other freedom to find than that which is a gentle rhythm. Not in the context of wholeness. If anyone thinks i am fanatical, then i can only say ok we can discuss this. For me, it feels like i exist only for to go this way... still i feel its has been such a long process for me just to find the way... i don't know if i will have a chance to experience this Sangha... the living happy family. Its more like an inner state for me. I haven't seen it jet among the Ting family or the Rainbow gathering, this absolute dedication that is needed for to create a Sangha. A flowing stream of light beings. Only for a week here and some days here and there. Still i can perceive this dream in many hearts. But there is something that keeps this feeling still at a beginning point. Even though i have seen this new pathway for perhaps 20 years, i am still missing this group of totally dedicated around me. Way is that? Perhaps i have some misconceptions. Its not just like drinking a water to find out all the ingredient's of the cake of happiness in times when almost everybody is going utterly the opposite way to the presumed destination. Most communities are lead bye profound egos that takes them gradually back to this so called normal ego based culture. The women that used to work so nicely together in the old times are still looking for their own man. Their personal little cosmos.And then they have a tendency to disappear into their own little "sanctuary". And that is an unrealistic program that dous not bring us forward. Weather it is something in me i don't know, i have had rough life experiences and i am working with forgiving myself and all my relations, or in us in general I'm not shore about. But i am looking into this. But this is the next step as i see it, in Iceland and elsewhere. The Ting gathering is the rehearsing platform and a place for shearing ideas and visions. Also a place where truly dedicated can find each other. Well... for me there is no other way.... and that's fine for me. On the other hand many of the boys on gatherings are far too much in a obvious competition about the women. Instead of expecting less and looking for an opportunity to inspire the whole family. Looking for opportunities to serve the whole and realising that love comes bye it self and can not be pushed. If it is pushed it will not come out good. Love between man and woman is holy and should be approached very carefully... and not on the basis of need... (specially not sexual need) but from the feeling of wanting to give... serve, support. And such holistic love needs time to understand what is really a gift of value to the love one. Other ways it may hurt. This i know because i have been through through serious mistakes in relations. And nothing is more painful. And i think its not only me... yes its me.. i am learning, but its the whole culture that produces this kind of patterns.. of relations that have no circle to sheare their hearts to, but want to go their own ways... this can repiete as we are tying to understand some ground truth... how to relate... within and with each other... hm... this is a big subject.. how to relate and create a sangha... a comunity that is living inspiration of togeatherness and relations that make us strong and joyful and trustful and relaxed...