i dont realise it myself even how to be free in this situation... well i am free in my mind and heart, thats the only places i can say i feel my freedom in my dreams yes and painting singing dancing acting out i feel free basically but this freedome our forfathers had, those we like to see as aliens and the freedom we can have if we practise the holy ways and go the simple blisful ways in nature... this freedome, this bliss of being always with the elemennts and your closest ones around you and always doing something outside in the free air, theese simple qualities many and i say many again would like to realise into their lifes and thats where i am heading, im not mearly talking about that that some of us can but all of us have it inbuilt in us how to stream into this timeless bliss of having nothing to do and everything and yes then we can see the childlike aspect in all this...

but free they are when they dont know limits but follow the feeling

but our forfathers had not only this childlike aspect but also a loong accumilated tree of knowledge

yes its all scattered over the globe... yoga in india and tantra, tao in china, dreamwalking australia, jól in iceland, hary bol in india... graadually I get more and more pieces of this pussle

to realise better and better what to do, where to go, how to be one with everything

it all becomes one with more and more intimaty and closness with the old tradishional way

and this alian looking forfather is here also is here in you and me, the elf, the troll, the giant (yes the "earth" people used to be smaller, now we are all the same almost... well, between 1.50 and 2 meter... before we where from 1 meter to 2 or more. And now we are mostly 1.60 to 1.80 m) Is it harder to believe we are trolls than alians? or is it the same?

But a person living like a radio in deep trance receeving and sending is a bit peculiar a person for this tipe we think we are now... a jogy in deep meditation is yes a bit different place than a taxi driver

is it harder to believe our forfathers where highly advanced shaman tantra gurus with all the siddis or extraordinary spiritual powers and a great personality after having lived in ice for 500.000 years in isolation, than alien high teck something

is it harder to believe that we are wonders among other wonders in this garden of life and its no more wonder to be a man than a bird or a lotus but that nature is creative and blossoming a wonderious ways all through

but for the record, im really open to see these aliens whenever they show up, pliese give them my e mail if you run into them (if they are already here like many say, but the biggest problem is this one, those alians who dont know they are alians (even robots) thats a bit trickky, how can one find out if one is alian or real, after all there must be some difference or could we all be copies or replacemennts without knowing it at all? (and not gona find out ever if i can just for ones shut my mouth.. and can i, will i ever get to to that point or am i still writing you a long letter?

do you hear me?