a picture of the self

i think we have a picture of ourselfs that isnt really showing who we are...what we are.. how we where and what has become how we are now and how we feel about it makes us sick... pussled.

so how to see who we are

and what difference does it make?

the self image

this being in the mirror

yes we can see this being now and the world we live in and its messy and its hard

and confusing.

How to see better who we are and what we have been through... a dramatic story i have to tell about you and me

how we got here

through the genetic ladder.. generations of experience after gererations

from a cell, to the mouse to the ape

to the fire-ape less than milljon years ago

stranded on an cold vulcanic island for almost 900.000 years

and then we come to a mythological time

before and after the flood

and then a great war started... and we are there in the middle of it

still and its decadence

this war is inside us

we carry its wound within in all our relations,

even with our loved ones and ourself

and war.. what is a war? a great disagreemennt with no compromise between to parties... beings... these things are normally unspoken of... not exepted parts of ourselfs to go into deapts on this wa we are not pieceful..

so we are not whole.. we are broken, but trying to become whole, we do things we call mistakes... we hurt on another... we make a war in the hope we see whats wrong we make more wrong on top of wrong and we suffer and we suffer... trying to find a way out of suffering

there is not one way out of suffering... budda had many advices

but one part of it is to understand what we have whent through.. our story.. a story that explaines for us way we are like we are
not a story that makes powerpeople have a better way of dominating you and exploit but a story that will help you to heal and be whole... exept how you feel and are seeing this being in the mirror

oh should i tell it then?

do you want to hear it?